Azwan Ismail casual confession

Asyik bukak youtube je last couple of weeks, that i saw "eh ade Malaysia la kat Most Popular ni home page Youtube"...the title is a bit long that the few last words do not appear, out of curiosity i clicked...

surprise, surprise~...Azwan Ismail, SAYA GAY SAYA OK...its been a week now since i first saw it and sampai la dah kuar Utusan pon tadi...the video is tag under activism everyone..ape yang mereka atau seksualitimerdeka ni perjuangkan....tentulah seks songsang. kalau straight nak perjuang2 ape lagi, dah memang betol.

He quotes Shahnon Ahmad yang kite yang berhak bagitau apa yang kita nak jadi and goes on saying that all other people, ustaz semua tu been telling from the point of view of heterosexual...mine you, we're telling you the true revelation of Allah the Almighty, not from our own heterosexual view, but our firm belief in Allah and Islam, if you still share the same faith. Surely, He doesnt underline what we can or can't do for no reason....gays are more susceptible of sexually transmitted diseases sebab bila luar tabi'i, it will cause trauma to certain part which later encourage the entry of micro-organism, if they do have sex with their partners. I dont actually need to know the nitty gritty so long that i believe Allah, the all known who sets the rule.

what they are trying to do is that, urging the gays out there to find strength and support (in a way buat komuniti supaya ade backup la geng ramai2 kan) to be able to go out there and be confident about their sexual orientation (that is clearly against the norms, thats why they hv to go all the way like this), hold on to what they feel, that gay is fine and confidently tell others about it like its no big deal and its not wrong what so ever. Jangan la jadi kaum luth, not in Malaysia Azwan, not here...

Macam2 la kau nih!

i have the thing in me where i got inspired through jealosy...hahahah. Bukan la, its a mere admiration on people who can do certain things i cant, have talent or skills that i dont, creativity, behaviour, knowledge, outlooks and principle, will and abilities to make a difference, fashion sense, ape2 lah that makes them look awesome...if people were to ask me who/what inspires you in life, i would say just anyone....most of the times, perasaan kagum tu resulted from seeing everyday people, usually around my age who can accomplish such things, or have such things...because they in some way give me hopes, macam sesiapa je pon boleh...

Intro macam ape tapi sebenarnye nak cakap ritu tengok gamba kawan post ape yang die masak2, pastu tgk gamba dekat restaurant sambil telan2 air liur, pastu tibe2 rase nak try2 jugak new recipe...kalau kat rumah En. Majid ni, our everyday meal mesti kene ade sambal. wajib! kalau x, adik-bradik x makan... sambal ikan bilis, sambal kentang, smbal sotong, ayam pedas, sambal telur, daging, u name it as long as it is sambal. So tibe2 rase nak experimenting and this is the result...

Lemon Butter Chicken

la? nak citer tu je ke? yes, finally dah ade update. hahah...reason being, i dont want to post anything yet selagi xtukar blog punye look...bosan dah. but i was soooooo lazy to change it. but i think i hv many things to share...bye!

New Addiction

Saya sahut seruan Tun Mahathir dan mengamalkan dasar "pandang ke timur"...pandang punya pandang terjumpelah taeyang..(wah it rhymes). hhaha.. shallow gile ko ni asyik post pasal artis je..

pai, tangan urat2 ni mesti ko suke kan? hahah.

sebab suke taeyang;

1.edgy walaupon bermata sepet (nape rase seperti racist, bukan racist cume taste lain..hehe)

2.tapi modest

3.tapi MAN HIS DANCE IS SUPERB!

Ting2. perfect combo!

aside from his singing, yg lain dah smart dah.

Those typical korean fanatics yg gile2kan artis korea nih dulu saya pandang macam hmmm....but now ive become one! Oh tidak! xpelah, sebab taeyang xkesahlah. haha. saiko. tapi kalau Melayu mohawk2 camni xselera lah. biar bersenggah sket.

Ni entry camni nih, tiga bulan lagi confirm nyesal post. haha.

x malu dah...

Biarlah nak merapu pon, at least ade la update for 2010. Malu la lama2 asyik kat post "bulan baru" tu je..sgt overated and lame...hahah. but at that time it was a big thing so saje decided to join the fun. Nyway, Avatar n Law Abiding Citizen are way better kot. At least good message were conveyed.

Rasa sudah xminat berblogging, ke sebab takde masa, or is it both? Ntah..and i dont know whether this feeling is seasonal ke ape. Tapi sy masih minat bace blog orang lain. Orang lain lagi hebat.

Konon2 2010 nak jadi orang baru. A better me. Hoping to continue that positive vibes of akhir 2009 but i realize something. Istiqamah tu susah.

BULAN BARU

Since new moon are released, everyone is buzzing more on the two heroes than on the story

itself. agree? well i bet most of you know the heroes are divided, they are apponents. guess who's side im taking? (haha, im being lame, as always!). im with.....

Team Jacob! Before watching it, im into edward sebab konon2 macam cool, but i changed side. Hehe. Sebab, character Jacob yg sweet gile nak mati, boleh dapat kencing manis diabetis. Body hot tu tolak tepi lah, lagho2. haha. Bile sorang tu sweet, die automatically cute. Got it?

Being a wolve, badan Jacob panas je. Bella sejuk, and he kinda said she can hold on to him to keep her warm. (well, something like that) Ok, ni sweet tapi belom kawin x payah la, insaf2. haha.

He's trying hard to protect the girl. Eventhough Bella refuse to listen to him and knowing that he's entering the vamps territory where he, being the wolve could not do anything, Jacob refuse to back down, sanggup ikut je, he said "I wanna make sure u'r safe". Ow, sweet.

Yes, his love for her is genuine and intense. When Alice is taking Bella to save Edward, he said "please don't go"..."Please, im begging u". Sweetness yg membunuh. Dah, stop jiwang2.

p/s: ade yg kata new moon tahi. haha.

Selamat Hari Raya Haji

sudah hari ke4 tapi masih ucap. 3 hari je kan? xpelah..

mama papa ( i know u'r not reading this tapi...),

Aunty midah memang cakap nak datang and luckily die datang semayang raya skali kat keramat, so i went with her. =)Kalau tak, iylia tak tau nak pergi dengan siape.

Haji Abdul Majid dan Hajah Zanariah, semoga beroleh haji mabrur. amin. Buat kawan2 lain, Salam Aidiladha, semoga kali ini bawa lebih pengertian dan barakah.

Cahaya Hati

6/11/09

Memandu dari kampus ke Keramat.

Malam hening yang hanya ditemani radio.

Hanya kerana lagu,

Jiwa terkesan. Dalam.

Ya Rabb.

Betullah, siapa yg bagitau opick haritu. Terima kasih, sudah jumpa. Music for the soul. =)

Mission

or should i call dreams instead? ok, oleh itu saya memerlukan tutor yg boleh bagi crash course tapi dengan free of charge..ade ke...haha, TAPI tu penting eh dalam konteks ni.

1. Nak pandai bahasa arab.
Bila cakap belajar uia, some people have the perception yg kite ni mesti ustazah, pandai cakap arab. Stakat belajar arab komunikasi sampai form3, arab sampai level 2 je kat matrik and that's it, memang tak kemana. Skarang ni sangat jeles kalau dengar orang melayu cakap arab. People with extra language is at advantage, lagilah bahasa Al-Quran. Nikmatnye baca sambil paham kan? Sembahyang pon lebih khusyuk.

2. Nak pandai main guitar
Haha, macam contradict dengan yg atas. I fancy arts and everything related to it, be it photography, style, music, ape2 la. Tak salah kot blaja suke2..saron gamelan dah lepas dah, hehe. Sape boleh ajar a lefty using right handed guitar?

3. Nak pandai swimming.
Penting supaya tak lemas and a good form of exercise. Tapi malangnya, saya xtau.

4. Nak daki Gunung Kinabalu.
Ni kira optional la. Hehe. Shepah kata biar realistik. Kalau die, letak dreams yg mampu capai je. Tak realistik eh semua ni?=p

dream on~

* Semua ni harapan aku je tapi no 1&2 la paling teringin, kalau dapat Alhamdulillah, kalau tak, takpe. =) Maa'ssalamah, wai'lalliko'. haha..salam.

Kebersalahan.

Rasa bersalah yang amat sangat. I dont mine you giving a friendly call once in a while but i do mine u still asking me out. Bila tak angkat, 3 to 4 times and not returning your calls, u should have understand. No need to call berpuluh2 kali, u've come across pushy when u should not. Tak reti nak cakap no dan tak tau nak buat camane, that's why i've been ignoring your calls. Please, cukuplah. Us is history.

Im sorry. But i refuse to let myself stuck in the condition that leads to nowhere. Because i've moved on and i think u should too. This is so personal and i donno whether u'll read this or not. I just have to let it out because i feel bad, i am.

Caprice

ok fine, i admit i didnt do justice to this fella, Caprice..haha. Macham hape jeh..ok la, i rephrase my sentence...i take back my word "caprice lelaki terpoyo di Malaysia"...

Sejarahnye tertau sebab tengok di wakenabeb. Its fine that he replied in english when people are talking to him in Bahasa, tapi bile suro translate ke wat lagu Melayu, my brother n i was like poyo gile mamat ni "i dont do malays bla2.." well, something like that..dan lain2 lagi caranya..

Back then i donno he's an artist. Disebabkan shoutawards, then i know. So, with me already had that perception, i saw him treated fans differently at shoutaward showcase at OU. Lagi la i rase memang poyo.

Akan tetapi, my perception changed. Die menolong family menjual lauk pauk di bazar Ramadhan TTDI seperti sambal tempoyak and proud of it. Okay, it looks like the english speaking boy is Melayu habis after all. Promoting his mum's cooking does makes him looks humble.

Standard la rappers have certain ways of conversing i guess. Haha, xtau la this hiphop thingy.

Tazkirah Ramadhan: Kene ambil peluang perbaiki kesilapan. Mintak maaf mulut jahat. Mulai sekarang nak cube 'husnuzzon', sebab Islam pon suroh kite bersangka baik. Jangan teros 'jump into conclusion' dan buat assumption sendiri. They may have their own reason of doing certain things they do that we might not know or think of. Mari husnuzzon people!

pergh..1 entry pasal die saje..aku memang x boleh belah.

Men

"Men are like shoes. A couple is like a left and right foot, and out there is your perfect fit. Sometimes you need to change styles and shop around to find it. Sometimes you have to break styles in, sometimes you feel like something that is unstylish but comfortable, and sometimes a style - as much as you like it - just doesn't suit you and will never fit."

Camilla Morton

p/s: cari la kasut yang sesuai dan selesa..=)

Bulan Puase

Sekarang dah bulan puasa la...nampak sangat dah lama x update.

Alesha cakap... "SELAMAT HARI PUASE!"...tapi bukan time dalam gamba tu la. Semalam nampak shepah bukak cerita Perempuan bekalung sorban kat laptop kadek...cantik bawang putih tu pakai tudung....tengok cite Nur Kasih jugak..sopan je watak utama dua2 cerita ni..sorang sopan berpakaian, sorang lagi sopan adab...nak cube jadi sopan jugak la...hihi.

p/s:nampak cam hidayah raziap kan kat belakang tuh...hehe.

Bulan Penoh

Ramai tapi sendiri..
Riuh tapi sunyi..

kadang-kadang.

masih ade family,
masih ade teman-teman,
itu yang penting...kan?
crap!

biasalah..
bila asignment2, kuiz2, presentation2,keje..
bikin jiwa tekanan!
mesti luah!
dulu ada orang dengar..
sekarang kat sini..
takpe..taknak mencari dan dicari lagi.
dulu dah cukup. penat.
bosan dengan ending yang tak habis-habis.

im a misfit,
canggung.

life isn't a bed of rosses,
its a roller coster journey.
sekarang aku kat bawah..
tak best.
jiwa kacau.

Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan..Amin.

Do they get my point?

Hari tu menolong Rafiq membuat kerja sekolah dan saye berusaha bersungguh-sungguh menerangkan maksud 'sambil' dan 'lalu'. Percubaan saya menerangkan maksud 'lalu' selepas explain 'sambil' lebih kurang la camni;

Acu : kalo sambil tu buat 2 bende dalam time yang same, 'lalu' ni plak lepas habis buat satu bende ni, selepas tu baru bley jadi lg satu bende. contohnya, Rafiq pergi ke kedai 'lalu' membeli roti. Lepas Rafiq pegi kedai dulu, baru beli roti.

Rafiq : Roti ape?

haa?????

Selepas berkaroake bersama cicit n kadek di jj keramat, berbincang tentang liburan di awal sem depan.
Aniz : nantikan weh, bukak sem nanti kite beli la kat pasar malam ke, cd banyak2 eh..

Cit : pastu?

Aniz : pastu TENGOK la!


**sori la, nak jugak letak gamba yg same 2 kali...ia perlu bagi i.hahha.

Guilty as Charge.

Pengakuan bersumpah. Saya telah melanggar undang2 tubuh diri sendiri dengan membeli barangan boikot ketika terdapat alternative lain. Saya telah membeli Burgerking pada hari sabtu lepas dan KFC semalam. Kesalahan pertama adalah ketika di Masjid Jamek:
Cousinku: Iylia x lapar ke?
Aku: Lapar jugak.
Cousinku : Makan dulu nak? Nak makan Mcdonald ke,burgerking ke mamak?
Aku: Mamak kat mane?
Cousinku: Ntah la, xtau sebenarnye.
Aku: Iylia boikot sebenarnye Mcdonald, KFC sume tu...
Cousinku: O ye ke..kite boikot mamak sebab kotor..hehe..
Saya pon bersetuju untuk makan di burgerking supaya tetamu yg dibawa ke rumah dan jalan2 berasa selesa. Not to justify my action, but I chose Burgerking over Mcdonalds because McDonalds Corporation whose global headquarters is based outside Chicago is a major corporate partner of the Jewish United Fund and Jewish Federation. Through its Israel Commission, the Jewish United Fund "works to maintain American military, economic and diplomatic support for Israel; monitors and, when necessary, responds to media coverage of Israel". Dan Januari lalu mereka donate all 5days profit to the israeli wars.

Kawan2ku begitu lapar semalam dan semuanye telah decide makan di KFC for dinner. Im just waiting at the table not wanting to eat at first, but after i saw nabil's meal, OMG laparla pulak..dan saye tewas dgn nafsu itu. Walaupun Johor Holdings dah beli KFC M'sia, sumbody told me, royalty tetap perlu bayar. Sorry Palestinians if my money will be used against you.

Malam Puisi Utusan

To tell u the truth, im not really looking forward to hear them all berpuisi..=p. Saye ke sane, with one mission n 1 mission alone. Utk melihat dengan bijik mate saye sendiri sambil mendengar dari kotak suare empunye badan sendiri ketike mengalunkan puisi dan melodi mereka, bukan dari radio ataupon televisyen mahupon speaker laptop. Live ya'all!(suddently become hiphop).. Kalau dpt bergambar bersame lagilah satu bonus.

Owh, keterujaanku x dapat di"put into words", pabila mlm puisi ini akan dimeriahkan oleh hujan, terletak hanye berdekatan ngn rumahku syurgaku dan yang paling penting PERCUME! Bwk badan je dik non, dan kamera la (sebagai bahan bukti dan of course kenangan). Ketike di backstage, mila n hafiz pon ade tapi biarlah mereka dengan gerombolan mereka, saye dengan mission saye.

Mission accomplished after two years of dreaming.

bonus

*aku tidaklah lepas hujan je terus pulang, tengoklah siti sekali alang2. 10.30pm off we go. Pyan Habib paling mendapat sambutan.

Perihal Gamelan..

Kawan2 tau kan saye ke terengganu tempoh hari...ya, kg si shepah tu, sempena Sambutan 44 Tahun PSSCM yg macam taun lepas wat kat uia...ala, yg aku amik sijil tu..xingat?..ok, fine la, aku letak gamba (saje je, padahal memang nak tunjuk pon)

ok cukup. kecik je sbb gamba ni xde kaitan ngan tajuk..this year's event was at UMT. During the convo ceremony this year, I cant help but notice the beautiful sound that fills the hall, aish pe lagi, gamelan la..hihi..dorg main lagu timang burung weh...terbangga pulak tau lagu ape dorg main, i siap kira2 note lg 552 3235 3565...( budak2 recreation, ke swimming whatsoever mesti ckp eleh mcm no tepon pizza hut je sbb dengki)

Last year pon ade, tp time tu, what freaking song were they playing pon xtau sbb x amik skill gamelan lagi (haha, promote ni)..

Semalam browsing through youtube tgk vidoe bdk2 kaed(inspired by cepah), terjumpa klip gamelan uia, one leads to another sampaila ke caklempong budak uitm...serius hebat weh, (HENS pul tu, 2 yg penting sebenarnye)...haha,xde la...bonang yg byk gile tu dimainkan dgn pantas dan tuntas dgn 2 tangan membuatkan aku rase saron baron yg ketuk skali tu permainan baby2 plak...at least saron pekin bley la berbangga ketuk 2 kali( mesti bdk2 recreation ke swimming whatsoever tu x phm kan gamelaners?...hhaha) Korg mesti tgk jugak, aku pakse ni..

hebat kan?kan? rindu sama gamelan, x sabar untuk skill gamelan2..hee~

Eye Candy

Sorry guys for being cheezy and all...ye la, posting celeb's pics plak...but i can't help it, his hotness is overwhelming. (hahaha..statement xbley bla)ow, but minus the hairy chest..Well, i noe he's not cit's cup of tea..she once said she prefered Chase Crawford over him. What? duh..(now i become more n more lame discussing celebs plak, haish..)N Kadeq, jgn suke2 cakap taste aku cam bangla eh...
Ima mesti totally setuju ngan aku..hello, hello..kan ima? (haha, xpasal) Cheers to imah!

*so what about u guys? who's your celebrity crush? aku dh tau dh shepah, anas tahir..haha, bocor rahsia.

MAS Hospitality?

Ini adalah muke pelanggan yg berpuas hati. This is not me. Jangan keliru.

The only good things i can say about MAS is the food. Owh, n the stewards are ok, mesra dan servis baik. The stewardess on the other hand, sux, big time. This is what u get when u gave me poor services. haha.

Incident 1

Kepala de sikit pening, Utusan that i took was left unread. Ainon took Utusan as well. Before we take our nap, kami selit Utusan in our front compartment. Aku dah jage bile die ckp akan mendarat kat labuan bla2..The stewardes began collecting the newspapers when Ainon is still sleeping. She took mine n i said;

ME: Lagi 1 tu biar dulu la (refering to Enon's coz i wanted to read it)

STEWARDES: Bile nak bace? (still waiting for me to pass it)

(kerek gile, suke ati la nak bace bile2...but i still hand it to her. Plane tu mendarat di Labuan lebey kurang setengah jam pas tu n we were on the same flight to KK. Klu aku nak bace pon sempat je..keco.)

Incident 2

Kami transit di labuan sebelum ke KK selama 40 minit n for that time being, kami hanya stay on board while the plane is less than half full. Keluarlah si stewardes tadi with her tray of orange juice. Bile ingat balik, she's not offering us the juice pon tapi jalan straight je as i come to remember that Cit ask for it, "Kak, nak air bley"..then she stop. Some of us took the juice and Cit put her crumpled Ferrero Rocher wraper on the tray.

STEWARDES: Amik balik sampah tu bley tak? (cit amik balik, die blah)

KITORG: ( speechless, looking at each other) How rude is that??

Incident 3

Kat Sabah, MAS yg jage counter sungguh uncooperative(dgn isu lugage) dan sangat annoying, sy pon mls nak type lagi dan anda pon mls nak bace lagi dgn berkate "pahal Aniz type panjang2 ni, malas aku nak bace"...cume ape yg nak saye katekan, stewardess die ngn lelaki bley bagi senyuman yg manis, tapi dengan kami 9 gadis layan cam haram, how can i say..sexist to their own kind? With their owh-im-so-hot-but-kerek-so-smack-me-in-the-face look.

Kesimpulannya, by lowering the fares, its fine for MAS to cut the cost here and there, like collecting back the newspapers, but come on..'cutting' the quality of the services as well?

The Land Below The Wind

Saya memang pemalas..that explains y after so many weeks of hols, i finally post an entry. Cite dh x hot..tp nk post jgk. ahaks. Lihatlah aksi2 jakun kami 10 0rang, mmg x penah g Sabah pon, tp de 2 org tu penah la.

1st day : Not much going on, we just hang out n membute in kadek's room on the evening n went to Pasaraye Survey, 3 mins drive from her house at nite to find stuff 4 2morrow's bbq.


2nd day; bbq at Teluk Likas. It takes like forever 2 lite up the choal 4 bbq. Thanx to wonderwoman pie, after so many hours trying, we finally manage to have a decent bbq meal. Beautiful scenery, not so beautiful beach. Hehe, air hitam berpasir...its so euw but we played with it anyhow. Ptg tu, we went to UMS, i got to c Nabil! rindu ko. After Magrib, we went back to Kadek's.

3rd day; Kundasang, Gerai Pekan Nabalu, War Memorial, picnic at Hotspring Poring.... my fav place of all is the the war memorial..the garden, the views is simply magical.

4th day; Lunch at Tanjung Ara, the food is just ok, but the place is nice. We went to One Borneo, they got to meet Rosyam Noor coz there happened to b an audition there but pie, me, tiqa n teha were cruising the mall 4 different mission; find cit's sandals n tiqa's bag. We went to pasar ape ntah at nite where they were loads of merchandise lah, rambang mata but i already got mine at Pekan Nabalu so i didnt spent much there. We spent the nite at Marina Court.

5th day; The day i've been waiting for, Pulau Manukan. 1st time kot naik bot rasenye, my 1st time snorkeling, and banana boat..haha. Having to enjoy it with your beloved frens is priceless. My awful sunburn is totally worth it. After Asar we went to Pasar Philiphine, and had our dinner at Sutera Harbour, a treat by Azah yg baik hati, ima's fren.

6th day; Pasar Philiphine, checkout from Marina Court to Kadek's. KKIA-KLIA, dinner at Rawsha Ampang, HOME SWEET HOME.

Thanx to each of u that make this an enjoyable trip. Not just the places we've been, the journey dlm unser yg sumbat 10 org tu pon fun. Gazilion thanx to Kadek n fam for their generosity and kindness. What a beautiful experience.=)